I Try

I try to stay happy and to keep on smiling. I try, and try, and try! But some scars never fade ... and seeing them still there makes me sad. Sometimes that feeling that I hoped I'd never feel again comes back. I try to push it away, and that's when I start to feel numb. I hate feeling numb ...

Monday Blues

Yesterday I had the monday blues :( and then it rained. Not that I don't like the rain, I really love it. Rain is beautiful, it smells good, it makes the streets glow with the reflection of electricity, and paints all the plants green for the next day. But it also makes the mood gloomier if you let it. 
So I sat by the window, with that feeling of sadness that wells up in you and makes you blink really slow. I watched. I watched the raindrops fall from the sky and onto the bear branches of my favorite tree. I watched a random kid in a hoodie walk home from the bus-stop. I watched the cars drive by our house, and I watched a squirrel dart across our lawn, desperately seeking shelter. 
I watched ... but then I listened. I listened to the constant rhythm of the rain, listened to it hitting the sidewalk, the window, the earth beneath. I listened to the wind rattle through the naked branches of the tree, I listened to the sound of tires rolling along pavement. I listened to distant laughter of random neighborhood kids walking home in the rain. I listened ... and then I heard. 
I heard the sound of life around me. I heard the sound of water falling from the sky, dropping bits of life into every living thing. I heard happiness in the distance, and the pitter patter-ing of happy feet eager to get home. I heard the wind making music everywhere at once. Then finally, I stopped ... and I heard a reason to smile. 

I love laughter

Laughter. It's good for you. Makes ya happy, lifts your spirits ... and hey I've heard it's good medicine too:) The best thing about it? Usually when one laughs, another person follows, then soon everyone is smiling!


Legit facts about laughter I found on the internet :
* 15 minutes of laughter equals the benefit of 2 hours of sleep
* one good belly laugh burns off 3 1/2 calories
* laughter is infectious, which is why most sitcoms have a laugh track


So go out there today, burn off those 3 1/2 calories! Get the benefit of 2 hours of z's! Be a laughtrack! Spread your joy :) No matter what happens today, no matter what goes wrong ... I hope you still find a reason to smile.

^_^

Dr. Seuss was a genious :) 

Awesome things in life

* TREES
* candles
* reading books that you know you'll never forget about
* campfires
* scary stories
* bunnies with floppy ears
* taking long walks with the wind blowing through the trees and your favorite music playing on your      ipod
* texting
* when your parents don't tell you to roll the car window back up
* getting really into a football game
* drinking regular water in a fancy bottle
* romantical, tear inducing chick-flick movies
* laughing so hard that you finally zone out like a zombie
* photo - booths
* all 4 seasons
* taking long showers when you're stressed out
* the smell of peppermint
* gum
* when it rains and you're so thrilled you start dancing
* when Taylor Swift comes out with a new song
* picnics
* those subtle moments of inspiration God sends you
* coffee
* still having last year's calendar on your wall but not really caring because it has a cool picture
* popping your back
* lotion
* spring dresses
* inside jokes
* catching the person in the other car pick their nose
* recording yourself singing and secretly thinking that you sound pretty good
* painting your brothers' toes while they're sleeping
* awkward moments that aren't really that awkward but you pretend they are anyways because it's funny
* wearing the same friendship bracelet since July
* that look in people's eyes right after they laugh
* pleasant nostalgia
* hearing that person say "I love you too" :)

Who am I?

Have you ever felt like you don't exactly know who you are? I do ... maybe it's this phase I'm going through. Idk, I go through alot of phases. But this has made me really depressed lately.
Maybe I try too hard to be significant in a crowded world, or maybe the problem is I'm not trying hard enough...
I'm all confused and stuff -_-
What to do, what to do?  I guess I'm at the point where I've fallen but I need to get up and keep going, even though it hurts.
Pep talk with myself :
Me : Don't give up, don't give up!
Me : But I feel so sad and confused :(
Me : Get over it. Get back up and keep fighting
Me : -_- fine ...


After thinking through everything long and hard, I found a little positive streak in this.
Even though I don't know exactly who I am, I know who I want to be ... and I guess that's really all I need to know:)
Stay awesome guys.
                
               Love,
            
             the girl who recently mastered the art of eating sloppy joes without being sloppy

snowballs?

So yesterday my brother Josh came up with the most brilliant idea, which was so brilliant it made me laugh with delight. He decided to stick wet cotton balls in the freezer and then proceeded to call them snowballs. Seriously, if you live in a hot place like I do where it never snows ... this is pretty legit :) 


WARNING : don't tell your siblings of this ingenious idea if they have a good aim